I am trying to understand how to do madhury bhav. I’m a male teenager, from what I understand, madhury bhav is to think of shree Krishna as “beloved” I am assuming this means “boyfriend”, please correct me if I’m wrong. I know the soul is not a male nor female but because I’m born as male, I don’t know how to feel about this and it makes me a bit uncomfortable, but perhaps I’m not understanding properly so please correct me if I’m wrong. how to develop madhury bhav type of feeling, being a male, wouldn’t that be ‘gay’ if you know what I mean? Thank you.